🌺 Destiny or Free will?
We come to earth to reach and manifest our highest potential. Along the way, we find the tools, the gifts, the circumstances, and the people we need to accomplish this.
🌺 But is it mostly destined or do we have free will? Is it all already written, set in stone, or do I get a say in the matter? Are there really ancient Akashic records, palm leaves in a cave somewhere in India where my past, present, and future is written out, and all I have to do is watch my life unfold? Or are we master “manifestors,” great creators with the power to write our own story? Or is it a little bit of both?
When I was a small child, I don’t remember having to consciously do anything to live the life I was meant to live. Meaningful events and inspiration would appear as out of nowhere and I’d confidently take a step toward my joy. Awe seemed to be guiding me, propelling me from one moment to the other, transporting me to explore my innate curiosity. I trusted people and situations, and it made me feel connected to the moment. There was no need for me to “figure things out,” yet huge moments, peak experiences still occurred.
If I think about it now, it seemed like an invisible energy was running the show, and I was naturally being guided along this thread that was my path.
I see this with my children. They don’t yet worry about time or concern themselves too much with who they are to others and what they should be doing at any moment. They simply are. If it feels good, they do it. And these are peak experiences, moments when my husband and I can glimpse into a thread, a mysterious premonition, as if giving hints to the bigger picture of their soul. I know they are not consciously manifesting this. They simply are present, here now, to their enchantment, and their pain too. They know what moves them and what pushes them away.
As we get older, we begin to measure and strategize more. We stop spontaneously feeling and being our way through life. As 12 year old, I remember thinking I wasn’t sure I loved that emotional and spirited part of myself anymore. Feeling and being didn’t seem to be a safe or smart way to live. It didn’t seem to be helping me with what I thought the world needed from me.
As an older teenager, I wasn’t sure I loved “me” anymore, I’d had lost sight of my innate self. But I also remember thinking that if I put in the time, the effort, and the dedication I could accomplish anything I wanted. I began to think and plan with my rational mind, and went into the world determined to do and accomplish. This led to a lot of “making things happen” but also a life that was tightly managed and controlled with not a lot of space for adventure, creativity, and growth.
I “did” a lot. I “accomplished” a lot. Unconsciously, I was doing things mostly to please other people. And then, right around the time I turned 30, I realized that I couldn’t live like that for much longer.
Along the way, I had gradually shut down the part of me that used to be so connected to my life force and present to my innate self and my joy. Who I had become was a mental construct and I found myself in a place where I didn’t know who I truly was anymore. Although I could still make things happen, the things I was manifesting didn’t have the excitement or the inner reward I’d hope for. Eventually, it was harder and took longer to make anything happen. Everything felt like hard work and I got really fatigued and began to lose my “joie de vivre.” And one day, even though I’d worked so hard toward a goal, I just couldn’t make it happen. No amount of pushing and controlling could manifest it.
I had gone too far off my alignment, where there is very little magic, very few surprises, and no awe. It was time for me to come back home. And I did.
There was a way back to a more natural, more fun, more inspiring way of making things happen. There is a way that brings us to a place beyond our wildest dreams, to a place of boundless energy, to exciting flow.
There is a thread that is our destiny. And when we follow this thread, we have help, we have support, we have opportunities, we have creativity, we have growth. When we step onto this path, we embark on the mysterious, exciting and transformative journey of realizing our highest potential.
This we decided before we came to earth. We chose to come with the tools and gifts we needed to accomplish our mission. We also chose the people and the challenges that would help us deepen our experience of that mission. In this way, it is all written.
But I also know that we are incredibly powerful creators. We can manifest anything we want, truly. We were born with free will. And what we put out attention on will grow. When we put our attention on our deep inner self, on this innate thread of our soul’s path, and we choose to remember this original choice, the big “why” we came, we can create magic here on earth and manifest like enlightened wizards ; )
When we are careful and we react out of fear, we move away from that thread. When we make decisions solely based on our conditioned self, disconnected from our enchantment and our intuitive stirs, we move away from the thread. Things don’t manifest as well and we feel like something is missing.
When we know who we are, and we love and value ourselves just as we are, when we allow ourselves to feel again, to trust in our own brilliance, we enter the flow of the thread. Synchronicities, expansive energies, and divine love help us. Things happen faster. And there is more excitement, more surprise, and more contentment. We are guided within to the intelligence of our path. We are supported.
Today, the call from within me is stronger than the will to control and manage. My heart nudges me back when I forget who I am. And when I forget for too long, it screams at me. I often forget. But I know now not to ignore the call when it shows up. That my choice, where my free will comes in.
Every single moment we can remember our soul’s mission or forget it. Every single moment we get to decide to live from that connected place, like when we were children, and open our heart and mind to the guidance and the inspiration of our soul, or we compromise on who we know our self to be, deep down.
You would probably find your life written on those Akashic record leaves in a cave in India. At the same time, you know that it is possible for you to stray and get lost sometimes. That’s where your free will comes in. But he less you compromise on who you truly are and why you are here, the more creative and expansive your life will be. That is your destiny.🌺